♥ Yeelin.

2010-02-25T19:22:00.000-08:00

Ah!~

I don't have the usb for my cam, then i couldn't upload those pics that i took ytd! Damn sad! I'll take it from my uncle asap, i can't wait to upload those pics.

Okay,

i'll just say a little about the picnic ytd.

It was freaking fun there! We played volley ball, 'monkey', &more. We crossed the bridge, went into the sea, &was chitchatting there. Until i felt some not right, shan't elaborate. Went back to play awhile more, then started eating again, there's cake, hotdogs, tibits, pudding, &lots more! Most imptly, DRINKS! We were quite dehydrating there, not sweating but the hot sun is burning out water in our body. &&Yes, calories will be burned away too! But sadly, my weight still maintains at 40kg!! Ohoh, forgot to announced, i've lost 5kg during this hols, Great right?! AHAHA~

At around 530, Zt & me went to bath &changed. Then > Daiso. Zt, met Zw. I, met Kw. Then walk around to find things, > LongJohn. Watched the night scenery, &left vivo at around 910.

Kw bought me a weighing machine, SO HAPPY!~ I weigh myself just when i reached home, still 40!~ (after those food at the picnic)

2010-02-23T19:14:00.000-08:00

My birthday had passed, CNY had passed too. What's next i'm looking forward for? Ohyes, it's twinny's birthday, following up is the end of my working life, the start of my poly life.

>>Working life(until 2302'10)
>It's horrible, first is
From this weekend onwards, i'll be stationed permanantly at video-pro(a shop), &the worst is, i must have to hit on a target of selling 4lcd monitor in order to get my INCENTIVES!!! Wtf right?! &&even more worse, if performance not good, i'll not be allowed to do I.T show!! @#$!%$^&!%#@! Nothing to say about this job la, -.-' I want to stay because of people there, they're all them friendly, damn fun, most imptly, my in-charged ^^v.

>Second
The students is getting on my nerves!! I seriously have no isea if i can continue this job until the end of march cause i just can't take it when they bug me with questions, ALL AT ONE GO!! Can you imagine 4/5 kids of diff level taking diff subs, shouting on top of their voice to ask you help them with their unsolved work?!

Took neoprints with Sharz& huiru, after so long. Before that, we went to watched movie, 花田喜事. That movie was nice, it's a comedy &really do make me laugh alot, it's worth to watch.

Rate : 8/10

2010-02-03T20:34:00.000-08:00

Went out on my birthday in the afternoon, met twinny at hougang mall and bought zoey's birthday present. Cost me around $12+, then trained down to PS. Met up with zoey, pass her her present then went swensens! Twinny shocked me when she passes me a bear, damn cute, damn comfortable, damn nice. Sat in swensens, severed by Janel, ate ice cream, took pictures, and so on. Received alot of presents from twinny, SUPER TOUCHED!~ It'll be a good and memorable birthday for e this year :D

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to meeee,
Happy birthday to me..

祝我生日快乐,
祝我生日快乐,
祝我生日快乐~,
祝我生日快乐..

I made 3 wishes,

I wish that whatever i wish may come true.
My friends & family may stay healthy and save.
It's a secret! :B

2010-01-25T20:49:00.000-08:00

It has been 2months since i last post! That's so long, i didn't even realised that 2 months has pass by so fast! Quite alot of fun things did happened, my new jobs, my new friends, my new students, my new life. Class 4e6'09 was a memorable one for me, i won't forget for my entire life! Straight to the point, i got drunk during the chalet. Embarrasing!! >,< I did lots of things, bruises all over my body, thta's all i can say. My god..

Oh! For people who are waiting for their result on going to which POLY/JC, if i'm not wrong, the result will be out tmr right? Received through sms i think? I bet everyone will be looking forward for tmr. I'm actually quite worried, i've really no idea which school or course i'll be going :X I wished it was Ngee An poly!! Please, pray hard for me!!~

I start my job on 04Jan, working as a day care teacher. The subject i was incharged was Chinese. O.O Right? I teaches pri1 to pri6 there. Tough job): Someday, i enjoy but the rest of it, is just shouting, demanding, ANGRY! Most of all, STRESS is the word to describe the life of teacher in day care. My second job is a sales promoter. Samsung promoter. I promote LCD monitor, stationed at SimLim square. Quite a tough job too, i must go through some memorising and experinces of promoting the products. Made quite a few friends there, quite fun la, as compared to day care -.-

(J) - Ah!~

2009-11-25T18:57:00.000-08:00

Prom was super duper ganpua fun! HAHAHA! This will be a memorable day although i vomited, bad things happened too but gave me great moments with my friends, really, it was so high there. Screaming like siao gina, mad cow, losing voice somehow. Shan't elaborate more, btw, i love th part where we're supposed to go up on th stage with a entitled item. ^^.

2009-11-25T10:00:00.000-08:00

Finally, i'm updating my blog, actually i'm quite busy these few weeks, or rather these 2weeks. I'm everyday outside, spending money. During these time, i'm having ava camp in school, playing mahjiong at g.g.father house, out at town, at move theaters, at kbox. Oh, &i've dyed my hair too^^.

LOTS &LOTS OF PHOTOS!
(UGLY PICTURES OF ME)

Anyway, i enjoyed my holiday, i enjoyed going out, shop, eat, buy, sing. I enjoyed th most during camp times- First day of camp. We were playing captain's ball, happily, scoring more &more (our team) When th score reaches 12-4, i got carried away, maybe being too high? I lost my balance from th chair &fell, knocking th head on th ground first. I instantly went blank! Then, my leg got scratched by th chiar, bleeding. Was sent to clinic to see doc by Mrs toh &yiling. Then they sent me home after collecting th medicine. - 2 fr apply, 1 fr relieving pain (eaten) A big bum on my head, was said to be blood clot. Until now, it's still painful but th bum is not so swollen alr.

More pitures coming up!

2009-11-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

Wait fr my update, alot of pics will be coming up!

2009-11-12T23:09:00.001-08:00

It's end of 'O !!
Feeling damn relax now, holiday mood, i'm just practically emptied my whole brain, going out almost everyday, but feeling damn broker each day.
Actually i've alot of things want to post de, but when i started typing, i don't know how am i gonna to start. Oh, i've watched 2012. It's a nice show, rating it 8/10. I'm gonna to dye hair no matter what, i'm gonna have prom on 24NOV, class chalet on 29, 30 &01OCT. Don't know shall work as what, friends are introing me jobs which are real attractive. [ WAITRESS/SALEGIRL ] - (vote please)

Sometimes i do really hate myself fr being th way i am now, i hate th life i'm living in now too. I'm confused over things easily, stucked in it &no one could tell me what to do, only thing i could do now is to wait, let th time take th course. But my heart is telling me that i could wait anymore, i'll just have to give everything up &move on. I'm telling myself every min to not think too much, getting sick &tired of being like this. I'm ill treating myself, i think. I've illness, i think. I'm feeling damn sicko. AH!~ Whatever, i don't care, i'll just have to wait fr someone to pull me in. Say ~~I LOVE YOU~~. HAHAHAHAHA!!! -I LOVE YOU? What is th true meaning of these three word, anyone could really define it?

2009-11-06T19:50:00.000-08:00

Ended almost all th main papers alr!

Went downstairs wit usual people to slack til 6plus 7, met new friends, chat about 'O's paper &craps. Feeling damn good going back to slack around with them. I'm able to puff there too! HAHA. Thursday went out with aunt to baibai, then went tpy, walk around, went home. Under the rain playing, th rain is freaking heavy, damn shiok, damn cold too!~ Yesterday went out around 11 to meet WY at amk hub & her cousin. Watched MY GIRLDFRIEND IS AN AGENT. I can confirm to you that the show is so funny, entertaining &is worth to watch cos i was there laughing all the way. Rated 9/10! After movie we went PS walking around Jcube, meeting Jansen cos he say he wanna to pierce tongue. Managed to call francis to pierce as Wy wasn't experinced to pierce. Twinny came &we bought presents, trained home together w francis, then bus home to bring my cousin out. Went hougang mall to walk around, bought sweets at ntuc, together with my aunt. Got home around 9plus, started wrapping up things &twinny left at around 10plus. I hasn't been eating fr whole day, yestersday cos stomach wasn't feeling well. I'm not gonna eat much too cos still don't feel like eating. I'm running late to meet Sharz at bishan! I'm off! BYE!~

2009-11-02T03:17:00.000-08:00

ALERT PEOPLE !
I've changed phone! So happy, HAHAHAHAHAHA!
&I'm trying to get used to it huh, when first use to send sms, i used up 15 mins to type one msg, damn cock, like suaku lidday sia, LAWLS.
&&I've unlimited sms, even more HAPPY! I can anyhow sms, reply to *anyone man, yea, no restrictions! So glad that my aunt kept her promise to get my phone by Oct.

&&&People, please don't get over reacted with my post please, don't need to just becos of a post then have taiji, relax la, cool down. It's just a post &to clear all misunderstanding, (JOVINA)'s tag is referring to me, he's suaning me that if anyone would wait fr me, they'll become old. (D) has misunderstood (JOVINA)'s tag. So, ya, everything settle? (JOVINA) don't angry liao la, he not on purpose de. (D) it's just a misunderstanding don't need over react.

&&&&I've been mugging fr my 'O fr th past few days, studying until late at night, 3AM. Each &everyday don't even have a good sleep. Flunging every paper that i've took, Sighs. My hopes of going to poly are getting slimmer):

I'm feeling damn sick now,
I think if my 'O is over,
I'll just break down &die.

2009-10-30T04:02:00.000-07:00

Please don't wait fr someone like me, i'll hate myself more.

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Do you hear me crying?

2009-10-15T03:10:00.000-07:00

FULL STOP.

Things comes &go so fast, so easily. It took so long fr us to finally got together, but it took just 1sec to end everything, just like that. I don't know what's wrong w me, what's wrong w you, what's wrong w this world. Everything just seems to be not right, so cold, so unfamiliar, & i seems to 've lost myself somewhr. No one knows what i'm thinking about, no one knows what i want, no one understands, even myself don't. It's a torture, it's like hell to me. Everyday i'm having hell like life, anyone knows, understands, can help? Answer : NO ONE!

Looking back out past memories, how memorable is that?!

一切只能怪我还不够成熟, 怪我的无理取闹,

怪我的坏脾气, 怪我的不足,不是,

全怪我好了, 因为是我的不应该造成的.

Mugging fr 'O now, it's in 12 days. So won't be onlined anymore until after 'O. Sms me if you die die want talk to me immediately^^. --> (96688254)

*but not all sms i'll reply, depends.

2009-10-10T18:35:00.000-07:00

I'm being quite busy these few days as i was mugging fr my 'O. Getting damn stressed up everyday, every mins &hours i 've wasted, i 'll have th 罪恶感. I even wished i could lock myself up from everything, comp, family, friends, th world. I'm craving fr more time now, i'm feeling damn regret fr not studying enough, having this stupid brain to not function well that frgets things so easily. Whatever i've studied fr th last test, i'll frget &'ve to restudy everything again. I HATE MYSELF! I really couldn't afford to flung my 'O papers, i've dreams to achieve, 've high hopes putted on me by my parents. Everything, everyone is a stress to me. Questions kept appear in my mind, 'what 'll happen if i didn't pass my 'O', 'how am i gonna to face my parents, myself', 'what am i supposed to do', 'could i just end my life now, everything 'll be settled issn't it?' I feel so bad cos i wasn't putting enough effort on my studies, i really don't wish to let down everyone, but what can i do now? Is everything too late? I'm stryggling everyday, i really don't know what am i supposed to do, i've lost my directions. I'm going through so much pain, anyone know? I bet no one, even my parents don't. I'm left w just keeping everything to myself, carrying all th pain alone.

Sorry B fr everything,
fr every word i've said,
fr every actions i've done.
I promise won't be like this after my 'O.
Wait fr me will you?

2009-10-04T03:45:00.000-07:00

Sorry fr not been posting fr th past few days or maybe a week ago, was stressed up with my o level studies &was with B almost everyday except fr weekends^^. Everyday end school, B will be outside my school wait fr me, sometimes took bus to mall, or will just go straight home. Once a while will meet DD to study at mac, although not effective at all, but it's fun. HAHA !

Had my graduating ceremony on friday, went up stage feeling damn nervous, when MrT. hand over th cert to me, he ask 'You got cut hair speacially fr this right?' I was like NO! LAWLS ! Sat there listening to Principal talk, ex bowen talk, talk talk talk, i there yawn yawn yawn. Bus with Ziting to bishan, meet B at mrt station, train to amk, waited fr DD to end movie, feeling damn sick, true enough fell sick that night, but luckily, B was there with me until 9plus(: So happy!

Went temple to 'see' my leg, waited fr my no. to be called. Finally, my turn. He asked me to both th joss stick with both hand, sat down on a chair, lifted up my leg in front of so many pple, MALU fcuk! -.-' Sunday was told to go to one's funeral, do something, MALU all th way la, don't want elaborate more.

Played fireworks on sat, Mid autumn festival. Played mahjiong, lost $20+ but end up getting money back cos grandaunt gave me $30. So good right(: Played until 1plus, 2. & i didn't rely B's sms, felt so sorry):

Hasn't met B fr 2days alr, feeling damn sad, miss him damn lot. &I made him felt that we're having cold war cos i wasn't talking to him much, SORRY B, have trust in me okay, nothing is gonna to happen, &don't too much alr, everything will be fine. I (-insert-) you.

Updates fr past 1week.

2009-09-25T22:23:00.000-07:00

25thSept'09, a restart of me &you.
Watched Phobia2 at amk hub after school, the show is about 1hr plus, i was inside there staring at th screen, waiting fr th 'thing to pop out', th person beside me, was there covering his eyes, making alot of sound, scolding vugarities, jumping up when th 'thing' pop out & started screaming -.-' Laughs, i turned my head to th side cause i don't like th part when there are disguisting things like the flesh is torn/bleeding. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW !~ Th last story was funny &nice. I'll rate th whole movie 7/10 ba, not really th horror movie i like, it's NC16 though.

Got back all my results,

ENGLISH; 48/100 (D7)

CHINESE; 70/100(A2)

E.MATH; 67/100 (B3)

A.MATH; 33/100 (F9)

(SCIENCE; 62/100) (B4)

CHEM; 53/100 (C6)
PHYSIC; 71/100 (A2)

(HUMANS; 39/100) (F9)

GEOG; 24/50 (D7)
SOCIALS; 15/50 (F9)

Lastly,

I LOVE YOU

2009-09-19T18:51:00.000-07:00

Friday
Woke up early in th morning like normal school days, changed, rush out, took 161 &bowen people was looking at me with a wierd expression casue i was wearing school uni yet taking 161 which wouldn't reach school. Sat in th bus fr about 45mins, reached woodland mrt, took train fr 3 stops, Yewtee. Called Sotong, he directed me to where to go, saw him, walk up to his house, used his comp, while he went to sleep. After 1/2hrs he woke up &played dota, now my turn to sleep but i close my eyes fr 5mins only he wake me up ask me what i want to eat-.-' making me couldn't sleep back at all. Watched Twilight until 1plus, cahnged, he bathed, took bus to plaza sing,
He was telling which are th songs he like.
First, 白色风筝
Second, 退后
Third, 蒲公英的约定
LOL
when reached, we went to look at th time fr th movie, end up not watching any movie, we went to buy food cause i whole day haven eat yet, went to Jcube. Played audition, with QIQI, Sotong help me join in -SEHKA- fam, &he was thr quarreling with kiyo, ): After 1hr plus, nightkids came, we log off, went up to plaza, walk around, go back to Jcube again. Nightkids want to cpl, so Sotong help him, i letf about 6:05, Sotong sent me to mrt station, trained home, rushed to grandaunt hse.

Saturday
Bus to hgm, bought my exercise book, scroll round library to look fr book fr my aunt, spent an hour plus but can't find her book. Walk up &down th mall, then brought cousin to mac, sat down ate fries, bus home around 5. Reached home, rushed to online and dwld songs, - came, awhile ltr, i went to my uncle hse to celebrate my cousin birthday. Ate steamboat. Watched 考死, unexpected, KIM BUM was in th show!!! SO SHUAI!!! (: Home around 10 plus.

Sunday
Woke up around 8plus, went uncle hse again, slacked there until 5, bus to grand aunt hse, started to play mahjiong, won the first few rounds, lose not so badly, changed player here &there, end up don't know i won how much. LOL, but i got home with $20, when i only fook out $10(: Played un til 1, cabed home, around 2 then sleep. Tired, LOL.

Monday
Woke up around 9plus, went to ave8, collect my aunt wallen, bought breakfast back to eat, used comp all th way until now, was help aunt(s) to print things, help Cassndra to print things, blogging(: Don't know if today going out not, damn bored, screwed day, i think-.-'

2009-09-17T03:02:00.000-07:00

Tmr going to find Sotong, at yewtee,

Today was so cursed, everything starts to become wierd after Cassandra called me early in th morning saying that there are two Monfort guy, one digging his ear, another scratching his body parts like nobody business. I was there laughing, next, took a.math paper2 &end at around 11. Took bus 165 to hougang polyclinic, met Terence &Jenny, she was th one that was waiting to see doctor, wait for flong then reach her turn, left thr abt 1, bus(82) to punggol fetch lijin alr then went Compass point, see them eat yoshinoya, wait fr Cassandra to come also, LOL. Bought mos chicken, go home eat, use comp, blog hop, CLICK UNTIL CHUPATO69.BLOGSPOT.COM -.- Laughs like hell, laugh until stomach pain, throat pain, headache. Send some unknown people that link, his reply was : DAMN WHATS THAT! Didn't thought of his reaction will be like this, HAHA. Bus to hougang mall to buy things, saw DAVEN &DERRICK, shocked?! Bus home about 5, took th same bus as yesterday, same bus uncle somemore!!! Today really just happen alot of things that made me laugh is there's no tmr, LAUGHS.

Everywhr i go, reminds me of you,

2009-09-15T18:43:00.000-07:00

Everything just ended so soon, so, so, so soon.
Everything comes to a full stop right now.
Everything is just like a dream.

01Sept'09,
We started quarreling from don't know since when,
ended quarreling one week ago,
started to meet up frequently,
going to th library,
walking here &thr,
take bus from one place to another,
holded hands,
hugged,
&& ----
Everything,
that we've done, laugh, went through is inside my mind right now. Th places we went to, leaving me alot of memories. Although our r/s end alr, but i'm still gonna thank you fr th memories to gave me. I think this manner will be th best, you being free, happy, at least. I'm fine, really. 15days of me &you, i do enjoy, feel very happy every moment with you. Even though i'm really, very very very, absolutely sad now, but it will be fine, i think? You bad points will still be good deep in my heart, no matter what others said, what you've done, really.

Lastly, GOODBYE, to you, my love.

you're my everything,

2009-09-10T16:43:00.000-07:00

I've been waiting fr (♥) th whole morning& afternoon,
yet he's not coming alr, sighs. Arghs, it's okay. (i tell myself),
Although I MISS HIM alot.
Ah, whatever, i go study le, don't want use comp anymore longer, making me pissed, bored like fuck.

2009-09-10T14:59:00.000-07:00

These days stayed at home preparing fr prelim, Chemistry, SocialStudies, English, MT, Emath(P1), tested. Left, Physic, Amath, Emath(P1) when school reopen. Putting all my effort on physic as i haven been studying phsyic since starting of th year X.X Amath i'll just have to pray hard that i'll at least pass.

Have been meeting (♥), feel glad that we're still together. I'm learning to control my temper, & have at least change a little, i think. I'm trying my best to open up myself to my parents, opening up to others, enjoy myself every moment with (♥), progressing fine, at least(:

Went Era yesterday, finally know how issit like, didn't get to what i expected as it's just like a normal lan shop and it's small -.-' Woke up very early previous 2days, wake up to meet (♥). Walked around here& there, bus from one place to another. Took bus th whole yesterday, sit until pigu numb and aches O.O (♥) sent me home& stayed over until around 8. After he went home and i started to study again, but stmoach not feeling weill so i went to sleep quite early. (♥) will be coming today but he's going to pierce lip first, i'm now slowly waiting fr him^^.

I'm happy,
&thanks,
fr everything
(♥)

2009-09-04T23:38:00.000-07:00

I felt lost, w/o you.
How, i really miss you,
i'm sorry fr being like this, ):

2009-09-04T22:04:00.000-07:00

Back to post a little cause finally i on(ed) my comp, actually alot of things happen during these 2-3 weeks. Sweet&Happy ones, Sad&Terrible ones, Memorable&Unforgettable ones, all happened.

What are we now, i'm thinking,
All i can say now after yr last sms you sent me was that,
I treated this r/s seriously, i really wanted th r/s to at least last a little long, i wanted to love you all i could. I don't want you to say anything that is not true& just simply say it because when you're angry. I'm feeling so insercure from th start, i don't know why but i'm telling myself to change. I trust that you're serious too but why must you restrict our r/s in that 1week, even though i know we couldn't last fr v.long but as long as we both try hard to last, try our best to maintain our r/s, i know we could at least be happy during th times when we are together. I want to care fr you, i want to miss you, i want to love you, but i don't even get a chance. How to tell you that how much i need you, how to know how much you love me, i don't know. When you said you miss me ytd night, i felt really happy, i thought we're getting back better alr, but th last sms you send me really hurts, i'm sorry fr not replying you cause i fall asleep alr. You said you don't give a fucking damn fr this r/s, you say you want to throw away my heart, okay, this if this is what you want, i won't hold on to you anymore, as i know

爱一个人不需要拥有,只要你开心就好.

Fr th last time,
I LOVE YOU, B.

Is it th END?
GOODBYE,
then,

2009-08-07T22:00:00.001-07:00

Whatever you have done to me, i'll just forget it and continue my normal life again, you have also alr step out of my life, there's no point clinging onto the past. Friends is all right now, Don't try to let me know that you're also not worth to be friends with. I love you so much once before, second time is too much for me, Hopes are gone alr, leaving memories for the rest of my life. Imissyou,

Uploading pictures took yesterday at Jane's hse(: 070809.
Went to eat and trained to potong pasir, trained home to bring my cousin out& also bath& so on. Bus down to amkhub meet Darling &D.D. Cab to Potong pasir again to go to their firend, Jane's house. Watched horror movie [ 女校怪谈5 - 结伴自杀] not bad luhs, just that there's no smooth link between everything, whole movie we were there guessing. Camp at her house eat hellopanda until 7plus took bus13 to amk, sent D.D home walked to amkhub, sent Darling home. Bus to ave8 met Twinny, ate Mac fries, Home.

The end.

I love you, CassandraL, JansenL, Jane.

2009-08-04T04:13:00.000-07:00

GOT TEST ON WED & THURS !

Won't be posting very often cause prelim is coming soon, maybe will online msn only bahs(: I'll be back very soon, DON'T MISS ME !

2009-08-02T00:53:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to post about actually,

Friday
After acp and phyics test, bus down to Amk hub and meet JansenDarling &CassndraD.D. Sat at mos awhile went down to b1 i think, to buy food. Up to look at what movie to watch, decided, HarryPotter &the half blood prince. Having COLD war inside the cinema, gan cold inside. Shivering all the way. After th movie end was about 5plus going to 6, wait for someone who end up not meeting anymore, was having slight fever while waiting, bus home at around 630.

Saturday
Went out to TPY to prey, shop awhile at hougang mall, then walked home.

Staying at home today, onlined, DazeT was sending me lots of song, some quite nice and others very noisy, Lmaos. Maybe going in audition awhile(:

I don't know what am i feeling now, what i want. His face appears in my mind suddenly, & i think i miss him. Oh, how? Please tell me how.

End

2009-07-31T10:00:00.000-07:00

Was in school's computer lab, Lmaos. Just here to say hello &Goodbye.

IDontMISSYOU! (:

2009-07-30T04:15:00.000-07:00

Oh, don't think to highly of yourself,

School was okay, whole day abit slack except for 2hrs of amaths in the morning. After school went to meet shaobin again. He waited at my house dwnstr, with a guy name Jeremy-.- Siwei came to find us too, with his school uniform._. Pei him go change, Louis came, then went to green see them play pool and b. Tio gan by the aunty inside cause i wear school uniform in. Cb, waited outside with L. &Sw. Pekyee came, smoke, Francis came, went dwn to 21kpt, Sw. eat, there drink water. Saw Nelson, went up to green again, stood outside lan shop cause school uni can't go in-'- More pple came, blah blah blah. Got taiji, Sb want go dwn, but i say i dun't want. Sit around at viod deck, slack with Derrick, J. and others. D. and F. fought, then blah blah blah, 6plus go home.

The End

2009-07-29T04:29:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night study until 3plus, lie on the bed, fell asleep, 4plus liddat, alarm clock rang, my eyes can't open, so fall asleep again. Woke up around 8 plus going to 9, LATE!!! No one wake me up luhs, slowly take my time cause i know i confirm late alr, Lmoas. Wore slipper to school cause my bloody toe stil bleeding like hell. Reached school around 930, just step in school only kana gan by F.

F. : What time are you supposed to reach school?
I diam diam,
F. : I'm asking you a question, what time?
Catching my breath.
F. : Can you answer me?
I say : 910.
F. : Now alr 930.

I there fcuking dulan, cause like whye must he shout at me only, not like i'm the only one that late or what. Got pple more late than me lohs, Cb. N. call my parents say what 8 time late will tio suspension. (I'm alr 5th time). Go lesson, have chemistry test, luckily i passed(: Went for reccess, kana called by F. again-'-

F. : You look at yourself, from top to bottom.
I : ??? Hurhs, what?
F. : Your hair, you shoe, cannot make it luhs.
I : (Fcuk, what thing sia)
F. : Your hair look like you just wake up.
I : Whye, anything wrong mehs?
F. : Re tie your hair please.
I : Orh, orh. (walk off)

Ganpua dulan, tie bun cannot mehs, i thought bun is neater than the normal hair style? Fuck, he is just simply picking on me lohs, Cb. As he he lai ang, dhen can vent your anger on me mehs, Nabei Cb!! Afer school, went out to buy bubble tea, played with a machine outside a shop, (Random). Scream when the ball got in, then a small kid, xinmin pri, shout walao ehs. I look at him, shout back, : Kp luhs hor, Cb. He diam diam, run to the stairs there, dunt dare turn back. On the way back to school, quarrel with ----. Whatever luhs, what he want to say about me, just be it. I've enough. After acp, went to meet shaobin. Slack around with him and other unknown pple. He ask me if we still have possibiliity to patch anot, i said : Idon'tknow. Lmaos.

FULL STOP!

2009-07-28T03:47:00.000-07:00

I need a break seriously, every now &than, things kept coming up my mind. Unsolved questions here &there. I just don't understand whye are you like this. Maybe i don't need to know now, i'm just imaginating things, putting too much fake hopes on you. Or even shouldn't have let you know, we could at least be friends. I can carry all the faults on my own. Leaving is the best resort &last resort issn't it? I shouldn't even have walk into there.

你在不知不觉中走进我的圈圈,我的世界里, 但你却突然的消失不见. 我看不到你, 也听不到你的声音.

I know i should let you go alr, i know i will cry, i now it's diff, i know i'll miss you, but i will try. 放手也是一种解脱, 因为爱我选择离开.

Bye.

2009-07-27T04:16:00.000-07:00

I called you for help, for instant you came up to me mind, yet you practically ignored my phone. Forget it, i think we shouldn't be talking anymore ler bahs.

Met, Shaobin, David. Out slack, came back 630, having fever, but i'm in the rain for more than half an hour. Shivering with cold now. No more energy cause have been not eating since sat although i was forced to eat ytd night. Eat a little will feel like puking alr, don't eat better. I'm feeling not well, seriously, i need a break. PUT ME OFF TO SLEEP AND SAY GOODBYE TO ME WILL YOU?

2009-07-25T22:04:00.000-07:00

250709
Credits to Jansen darling(:

2009-07-24T21:00:00.000-07:00

I'm attached to her on 23July'09(:

Wednesday,
After school, got chinese o'level listening compre. Sat in about 30mins earlier, that invigilator play the music make me fall asleep, woke up when heard chinese word. Th wind kept blowing, dhen my paper flew to ZZA there, damn paisehs ._. After lc, chiong dwn to Vivo to meet Cass, Jansen &Daze. Reached there around 4+ alr. Daze leg sprained, so he walk around limping-.- Bought jelly beans for like $13.88!! Fcuking ex lohs, thanks to DazeTanWeiXiong and CassandraLau. Slack at one place, saw alot of weird weird pple, Laughing like mad. Went to look at puppies too, they freaking cute lohs(: One of them still play with me, one more still like trying to lick me lohs X.X Trained home around 6plus, th station like damn crowded with pple lohs, Fcuk.

Thursday,
Nothing much, go school, end school, 6plus, go home-.-

Friday,
After school, waited for Deardear, Jansen &Daze. Jansen reached first, dhen we there bet wh will reached first, Daze or D.D. In the end leys, I lost. Thanks to that DazeTanWeiXiong, slow like turtle. Slacked at hougang mall, got stare by a zharbor, not as i'm going to snatch away her stead liddat, FUCK! Threw a choco here while we are going dwn the escalator -'- Walked to th top floor and sat there slack, play with the things there too. Jansen &D.D being turned by me(: So fun luhs, LMAOS!! 6plus liddat just bus home, took 74 with them. Slack at viod deck with terence awhile dhen go home online(:

The end

2009-07-22T06:57:00.000-07:00

爱一个人不需要拥有他, 只要他快了就好, 我知道那有多么辛苦/痛苦, 但我只能那么做..

I know that there is less than 1% that we would be together or not even single percentage but friends is just i'm hoping for right now. Arranging my feelings, fixing things up, hoping that i'll slowly get over it. Let it go, move on, get anew fresh life, you can make it dehs, TangYeeLin(:

Fucking dulan by a cheebye pubor, not as if i huan tio her, Ganinahs. Chaocheebye, say others until liddat, not as if you are so perfect. Please leys, look into th mirror can, accept the fact and stop commenting on other pple when you yourself aren't that good in any ways. Fast lump of shyt, Shuddup and fcuk off can, you big size dua gi uhs, come gang band me luhs, DROWN me with all your fats manz. I'm so scared!-.- *Pui*! Boh ga xi, chao pubor, HONG GAN luhs, GO BANG WALL sua! -'-

Imissyou, (38.Bytch)

2009-07-21T19:45:00.000-07:00

Everything went upside down for me today, although it's RHD today but at the later part of the day things just came tumbling down, DRAGGING ME TO HELL. I'm just being punished for taking things i have for granted& i regretted it now. But i think it's too late, STRANGERS, everything has ended. From a friend who promised that he would be there for me no matter what into ASH. (Its over, everything) Being said that i'm scary, at the point of time when i'm alr very is just adding salt to my wound, making me feel more pain. I've alr tried my best to be friendly and be a friend, what i get is (you're very scary). I'm sorry, for everything, my fault, my fault for wanting just simply a friend.

I'm Sorry, I'm so Sorry, I'm very Sorry, I'm uterly Sorry, I'm Sorry wholeheartedly, I'm seriously Sorry, I'm seriously very Sorry. I'm truthfully Sorry.

2009-07-19T01:26:00.000-07:00

I think I'm out of my mind,
Imisshim, serious, everytime open my phone its him,
What am I supposed to do now?
Cry and cry over it?
No, I don't think so,
maybe just hope that everything will be fine,
taking steps by steps.
Friends, (my intended outcome)

2009-07-18T06:43:00.000-07:00

Satuday,
1240, walked out of house, took 161 to mrt station, trained to bugis, in the train got two indian guy sat beside me-.- Smelly, and noisy too, Wtf,(No offence) Change to green line, reached bugis at 0130, Met Cassandra, Jansen, Simin and Daze at the traffic light there. Walked to the booth there to buy ticket to watch The Haunting In Connecticut(0500) Went walking around at Junction, sat down to take pic at one corner, pics came out to be quite nice(: Got a lj security guard shoo us off, so we went shop here and there. Went out to smoke, bought landyard too. Finally 0445, sat outside the theater there, took balloon. When got into the theater, they all seems to be very excited, Daze say want to sit beside me cause he scared, but simin don't dare to sit at side so he didn't move. Suddenly feel very hungry before the movie start, falling asleep too cause the thriller like very long hurhs, Lmaos. Lie on Cass leg,
She said : Baby guai,
I replied : Ongei Ongei! (Rolfs)
In the middle of the movie, went to call my aunt, also bought some food in to eat, fucking hungry, Jansen, Simin and Daze all looking at phone photos, not even watching, only me and Cass there poor thing watch throughout-.- After walk out the theater, damn cold, went to find toilet, alot of people, (REN). Lol, walk arounf junction again, dhen walk out to LJS, ate a little(Potatochips) with alot of cheese as if don;t need money liddat,-.- 0813 alr, sat out wait for Jansen and Simin smoke alr, walked to mrt station. Boarded the train tgt, Simin take green line all the way, Jansen, Cass and Daze take red line all the way. Me, purple line): ALONE. 0855, reached hougang, met Terence, pass him $50, went home, in the rain ALONE.

The End.

2009-07-09T04:04:00.000-07:00

How i wished you was for me now,
How i hoped I'm just miss(ing) you,
and not love you.
Am i getting false hope or something else,
I wished something else,
but what will be my decision?
I'm confused alr,
What am i hoping for, actually?

Fast forward please,
):

2009-07-09T03:26:00.000-07:00

Was very busy studying for my test these few days, everday wake up, go to school, go home do hmwk, sleep, wake up go to school again, STUDY STUDY STUDY all the way ): Seems so lifeless, Walaos. Chem test yesterday was EXCELENT! I got 21/25, felt angry that i make stupid careless mistake, if not i'll might get full marks alr-.- Okays, i think i must be satisfied with it alr, but really very STUPID! Today's test was HORIBBLE, i'll don't even have time to finish the paper cause Mrs Tan wants us to do the stupid planning which don't even have any marks for it. Left out the last paragragh lohs, wasted.

&& must stay back until 5plus for SS acp-.- Have a lunch break of 2hrs, asked terence out to go eat lunch, cass, and t's friend came along and after cass left for her afternoon lesson, me t, and his friend when to the street soccer court there to slack around, sat there until 250 dhen slowly walk back to school, on th way saw RH, Sharz they all, slowly tgt walk to classroom. Have fun in SS cause we are having QUIZ, lmaos. Lost to th guys but still got sweet to take (: Early dimissal 445 liddat end class, there gossiping abit, dhen we decided to go bubble tea shop there, on th way there, we all very high, laughing all th way, HR there screaming into people's ear, while we walking down the steps, she screamed into FEL's ear, dhen FEL sudden kneel down (Fell) alot blood come out, help her stop blood dhen we walk back to school again to help her apply medicine. While walking to bubble tea shop again, we there replaying what happened just now, everyone were there laughing like mad. Until we saw a cat, HR was afraid of cats, RH use a tissue paper tickle HR leg, Hr jumped up! ROFLS, all laugh liek mad, i *BOO HR she also chua tio, damn funny. We walk walk walk, RH tickle HR leg again she she screamed, Sharz screamed too, LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH all the way. After we bought the bubble tea, while walking to th bus stop, RH started to curse everyone. She cursed me : Ltr you sit in bus got a sickko will sit beside you! I was like there : NO WAY! After she alighted the bus, it was my turn to alight but i freaking missed the bus stop, cause i thought got pple press the bell alr, when i want to press too late, so i stopped at Ch's bus stop, walk home alone ): Thanks to Rh's curse although not really what she cursed but bad thing happened to me on the bus still-.- I was also scratched by my comp table the side slider, not got like blueblack, (gekhui) there )': I wonder what will happen to Sharz, Christin. Lmaos, what a fun day..

We had stopped smsing, ):

2009-07-06T01:16:00.000-07:00

Continues to sms -- day and night, joke here and there, 'quarrel' too. Rolfs, got one week never go blueland alr, just now went down awhile to take _ _ _, play card with them awhile, when coming up something happen, CRAZY -.- (--) are right, i shouldn't go out, or anywhere, arghs. But stay home everyday also sian, do the same thing, study and study, comp always. Suddenly got alot of msg too, WHATEVER, study more IMPORTANT now!

I have complete a chapt of SS, SriLanka & Northern Ireland conflict, quite easy to remember :D Feel abit relief, at least one chpt done, haha. Now studying for wed chemistry test, stress can, i don't even understand a single thing abt those 2 topics, Shag.. Should put in more effort to study..

-- : You more & more hot- tempered, always scold me ):
Me : No, i didn't, i so good where got scold pple dehs, Lmaos :D
-- : As if -.-
Me : I often saw your mother at kpt there,
-- : Never call her?
Me : Siao, i don't even know she know me not, ltr she say i crazy.
-- : She know you, I think?
Me : Whatever-.-

2009-07-03T20:20:00.000-07:00

Ate Sakae yesterday night with aunt they all, eat until full like fuck, taste better than the one at hougang mall, really do enjoy eating there, can see SHUAI GE there too, Lmaos. See him walk here and there, regretted not asking for him no. (*OPPS !*) Joking luhs, :D Took alot plates, ate quite a few, got (Chiang) dao by the wasabi-.- but when recover, damn shoik. Bought a new shoe at D&C, (silver) But I think I'm going to change for black or others, silver abit weird, that's what i feel, Lol. I need t buy contact lens urgently!

Have been smsing -- these few days, It feels just like we just know each other, normal friends chat, asking each other have dinner alr not, ask where are you, teasing each other, asking what is going on recently. Although we have break, we can just be friends bahs, i think? :D Things are different alr, we are both on different tracks, won't be meeting each other, like this will be the best bahs, i hope.. He seems to have changed alot, in appearance/the way he talk.
-- : You became very fierce.
Me : Where got sia, I'm so innocent >,<
-- : You're fierce.
Me : Whatever.
-- : Where are you? Eat alr?
Me : Ate sushi, you?
-- : Wahs, so good, i can't even go eat ):
Me : You want, I pei you go eat, you treat me :D
-- : Haha, okays.
.... & so on ....

Today will be out also, so should go and study first before going out, really stressed out for time sia, sighs, whatever i cant do, i must really go revise, memorise for goodness seak, ARGHS ! :X

While posting this, a indu guy came and ask me to donate, i gave him $3, he gave me a no. and hold it in my hand, he say i'll have good success, good job, he ask me say 4 numbers out, i say 3690, he ask me open the paper in my and see, its like 3690! Wtf, he ask me give him $51 for donation again, and he say he going to pray for me-.- I wunt so stupid give him like all my money can? He cut down to $21, i say i dunt have, dhen to $10, Aiyahs, just do some donation and do good deed, dhen he left. Heart ache siol, my $$ fly.. I feel cheated but the 4words thing really the same, and he know what is bothering me now, he say that i'm thinking too much. Omfg, cheated but willing to get cheated, how stupid, issit true? I'm wondering. >,<

2009-07-02T05:06:00.000-07:00

Just updating some old pictures in phone,

School was quite okay, everyday taking TWICE temp, bohliao-.- Happened to got suan on the first physic lesson, arghs! Went home str almost everday cause dunt want waste money, stay home use comp, but I MUST STOP DOING THIS ALR, TIME IS RUNNING OUT! Wth, i really need more time and brain memory, i cant memories everything, HOW! Stressed out sehs, sighs..

He smsed,
we talk again,
how do i feel now?
I don't know..

2009-07-02T04:06:00.000-07:00

不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
美可以掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

会进来吗
你在送我回家我还在猜测
那都是真的吗
再见面前
一直想象还有某种关联
但客气是拒绝
新的朋友
不在终点
你的世界
我在对岸
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去款待
作曲:林倛玉填词:李焯雄
没说分手
终于是能开玩笑的朋友
不是不难过
多少年了
我想过能和你一起老的
却都有别人了
我的世界
你在对岸
有些我没说出来
说被爱并不应该
我们的关怀
像爱但又说不上爱
没有后来
我们才学会爱
但现在说来感慨
不是那个未来
我们说好的
不会更改的你会在

2009-07-02T03:54:00.000-07:00

LOVE THEM & THEIR SONGS ! Listen, nice :)

2009-06-25T23:37:00.000-07:00

Swing me up high and threw me down hard,
the way you treat me,
I couldn't tell that you loved me..
But I just can't help to say Imissyou,

When there was me and you,
I know I'm alive,
when there was only me w/o you,
I know I dun't belong to the real life..

Everywhere i go, i hope to see your face,
searching high & low,
when finally saw you,
it came up to be just my imaginations..

I know you dun't belong to me anymore,
but I can't forget you are once mine before,
If you come up to me and ask once more,
I'll say forever more..

The every thoughts,
The every kisses,
The every promises,
The every places,
The every words,
The every actions,
The every hugs,
The every periods,
The every months,
The every weeks,
The every days,
The every hours,
The every seconds,
The EVERYTHING,

I MISS IT!

2009-06-25T02:58:00.000-07:00

How is wish someone could lead me,
through this empty corridoor,
lead me to the light and show me the way.
Walking alone,
banging into walls,
rain falls,
thunder strikes,
cold wind blows,
eyes on me,
I do really feel LONELY.
There's really NO more hope,
NO more future for me?
I'm there pondering,
finding my way out alone,
figuring what i've done wrong,
till my heart turns cold.
I become numb and put on fake smiles,
sleeps alone in a king size bed,
apart from the real world..

2009-06-25T02:24:00.000-07:00

Botak? Ray, :D

Pictures took on Flag day,
credits to Sharz

72, I think i miss(ing) you,

2009-06-23T04:31:00.000-07:00

Went to do flag day for special olympics, met huiru, cheryl, khairul at Amk hub. Ate mac for breakfast, 8.30 went to report to Mrs Guna, took temp, collect the can, decided to station at the bus stop there. At first feel freaking paisehs, but after awhile, got used to it and know that must be 'thick skin' got reject more that getting pple to donate but i feels good more that being disappointed. Coimpany weehung to eat lunch and we trained down to woodland, Causeway point, thinking that there wunt be bowen pple, but there are more other school pple doing the smae thing as us, so we decided to slack for awhile until lunch time. Waited at the food court for Ray, he shocked me by his botak! Lol, since very long we last met. Chatted for 1hr plus non-stop. Trained back to amk around 12.30pm. Feeling tired like shyt, returned the can and went to amk to wait for Terence and Joycelyn. When they reached, again company Joycelyn to eat, twice in a day seeing pple eat-.-
Watched Drag me To Hell at 3.05pm, bought things inside to eat, the sound effect gan loud, pressed my ear down for the whole movie, got dulan because of the pple behind, almost scolded them, but after the movie, Ray and terence say those pple were just kids, LAUGHS! Forget it anyways, i enough the movie with 3types of friends, OLD OLD FRIEND, CLASSMATE, HANG OUT FRIENDS, lmaos (:

I'm not feeling good at all now,
not even for a sec.

2009-06-16T23:26:00.000-07:00

KimHyunJoong&KimBum !
Woah, love them sehs, lol, SHUAI lohs >,<

Grounded, Stuck at home, SHAG ! -.-

2009-06-09T07:14:00.000-07:00

I think i'm grounded for my june holidays, WTF! Whatever, i'll rot at home better, -.- Sometimes i wonder, where have gone wrong, what i've done wrong, whye must everything turn out to be like this for me? NOT FAIR!

Movies watched this yr :

Night at the Museum2
Th Uninvited
252
Coming Soon
Kungfu Chef

Memories,
when there was me & him,
keep being flash back,
what is going on now?

2009-05-26T06:44:00.000-07:00

I think my blog looks dead, I'm very sorry for mia-ing for these days butreally dun't have the mood to post anything up. Seems to have alot of unsolved things going on, kept in my heart, dun't know what to do with it too, sighs. No idea how and what, just wanted to concentrate on my 'o' level study bahs, can't afford to waste any more time on these things. I asked myself what do i really want, my answer was, i really dun't know, i lost all my feelings, i feel numb, i feel my heart cold, my mind was blank, i wasn't going to cry but tears run down my cheeks, i've no interest in anything right now, no one, feeling empty once again, feeling tired, very tired, falling apart, i think? I dun't wish to have one, but what am i waiting and wishing for? I hate myself for being like this, for being so 'aimless, pointless', sighs. Who can tell me what to do, who can i talk to? Maybe only the wall and my bear bear, waht about the reply? I'm going crazy, i think, wth? I lost my way, i lost my aim of life..

hate me or love me, i do really care,,
So LOVE me more,
i need all of you's care and concern, ty.

2009-05-15T06:08:00.000-07:00

Notice!

Please re-add me in msn[tht-missy@hotmail.com] cause i accdentally deleted all contacts, thanks alot (:

Have been mia from blog for weeks, cause of mid-year, now finally end ler, relieved sehs, but results wunt be good. Somehow it will be much worse than i expected, sighs. This few days getting irritated easily, maybe i'm just too stressed up. My comp are having problem, Fuck-.- Anyway yesterday went to penisula, nothing much to see & buy also, i cant tahan the smell there, ewww, i'm not very racist but, really, the smell is #^@^%@$#. Dunt need to elaborate much. My daddy's birthday is coming soon, still dunt know what to buy for him also, no money to buy. I'm feeling so broke now. Monday is marking day, dunt know where to go sehs, stay at home and rot bahs -.- How i wish o level is over & i can go out & work..

2009-05-01T21:56:00.000-07:00

Your Stress Level is: 87%

Wow! Not only are you extremely prone to stress, you're a total ball of stress these days. And while times are certainly tough right now, being stressed out is not making it easier. Your stress is effecting your relationships, career, and (most importantly) your health.

How Stressed Are You?

You Are The Girlfriend From Hell!

You're hell on wheels, which is sometimes a good thing.But it's often a bad thing, as you usually leave your guy's head spinning. Slow down, or else your relationship will end in a loud crash. Or you'll end up with a guy so wild - even you can't tame him.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

You Would Do Most Things For Love

You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values. Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love. But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question. No matter what, you love yourself the most!

Would You Do Anything For Love?

2009-04-29T03:29:00.000-07:00

Ytd went to slack with JeromeL. at around our house de viod deck, he do his hmwk, i do my revisions. Feeling fucking bored, wrote things on my book,

{ JeromeL. <--

He look very serious >,<
very dao also-.-
fierce
shuaku
very quiet
bohliao & lame (cause heplaying the bomb thingy)
Rather play game dhen talk to me ):
forget what i just told him
shutting down labtop, reading story book?
STUPID, (he hit himself with the book)
noisy for blusting the music beside my ear
throw my pen rude!
kept saying sian
freaking noisy..
BAD SINGER! haha.
... }

He dunt want me write anymore, kept want me study..

Oh, and i have flung my chinses paper ytd and today's english paper, cause it's freaking diff-.- Sadded, feel like crying, Sighs. Just now went to eat lunch with CH di, nic and felicia, criticised by nic-.- they say what i got the dunt know what flu thingy-.- Wft? Smsing people which i long never talk to suddenly, for example, JeromeL, JovianP, J(s) haha. Anyway i'm just back from amath acp, first time stay school until so late for class, wth. Super tired now!

~~Can someone make my wish come true? ;X~~

2009-04-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

Zilian with my this ugly face >,<

2009-04-25T22:01:00.000-07:00

Class 3e6'08

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog.
B) Those who are being tag cannot refuse.
C) Continue this quiz by tagging 8 other people.

1 . What have you been doing recently?
- Revisions and all.

2 . Do you ever turn your handphone off?
-Everytime before i sleep.

3 . What happen at 10am today?
- Having tuition-.-

4 . When did you last cry?
- Cant remember ler, like quite long ago.

5 . Believe in Fate/Destiny?
- Fate

6 . What do you want in life now?
- LOVE

7 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
- Umbrella.

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed ?
- Sit ups.

9 . What bottoms are you wearing now?
- Black FBT.

10 . What are the nicest things in your inbox?
- Getting to sms my daddy about Liverpool!

11 . Do you tend to make relationship complicated?
- Whye must you make it complicated when it is meant to be simple and nice.

12 . Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
- No luhs -.-

13 . What was the last movie you caught?
- Cooming soon.

14 . What are you proud of ?
- Of nothing.

15 . What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
- An unknown bastard.

16 . What was the last song you sang out loud?
- Cannot remember, cause alot.

17 . Do you have any nicknames?
- Red apple, 1nil.

18 . What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
- Daddy, pool 1 nil alonso!

19 . What time did you go to sleep last night?
- Around 12plus, i think.

20 . Are you currently happy?
- Okay okay only.

21 . Who gives you the best advice?
- Melanie & others.

22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
- I dunt know sehs.

23 . Who do you talked to on phone last night?
- My tuitor-.-

24 . Is something bugging you right now?
- Yes, [his] friends.

25 . Who is the last person to make you laugh?
- ava members
26.Do you like yourself?
- So so.

27.You want $5 or $10?
- $10 of course-.-

28.Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
- Sometimes.

29.Who is your best best best fren?
- Melanie, she is my twinny, we have great mind that thinks alike.

30.What will you do if you like that boy?
- Keep it to myself, i think.

31.Who is your favourite stars?
- Singer can? Arronn.

32.You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
- I forever hate her, cause she left me when i'm not even 1.

33.Do you had even stead before?
- Like yes? o.O

34.what type of boy do you like?
- Mature enough.

35.Now are you single/attached?
-SINGLE (:

Pass this tag to 10 people ! :D

1. Melanie
2. Cassandra
3. Felicia
4. Renee
5. Jansen
6. Liying
7. Syeyan
8. Shermain
9. Pekyee
10. Delon

Answer :
1. Would you date number 5?
2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?
3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
5. Number 1 is acting weird.
6. Numbers 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and you to go to a concert.
8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
11.Number 7 and you are sitting on a couch watching a movie when he/she wraps his/her arms around you.
12. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
13. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.
14. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because she can't sleep
15. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
16. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
17. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen is suddenly aflame.
18. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
19. Number 4 just got you an xbox.
20. Number 9 challenges you to a children's card game!
21. Number 1 thinks he/she's overweight.
22. Number 7 looks lonely!
23. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave them alone.
24. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.
25. Number 6 decide to dye their hair black. What do you say to that?
26. Number 2 tells you he/she is going to go out for a while, and then later you hear about a shooting where 2 went.
27. You catch number 9 by herself, crying.
28. Numbers 1 , 3 , 5, and 6 all tackle you at once!

2009-04-25T01:06:00.000-07:00

Recently, alot unknown people came talk to me about [him]. Ask me if i still love [him], said that they are [his] friends-.- I ignore, ignore & ignore them. I tell them that i dunt love [him] anymore, i dunt even bother to care about whatever [he] is doing now, dunt come and bother me about [him] can not? I dunt wan to know if [he] what regrett or whatever shit can? Wtf? I dunt love [him] alr, make it clear and thats it! It irritates me when i heard [his] name, hate it luhs-.- I have get over [him] alr, my life dosent have [him] anymore, [his] news dosent concern me anymore. I'm anew now, after breaking up, its like alr 2 months. To make it clear enough, i dunt like or love anyone now, really no one, ite rare and weird, i feel that too, but how i bloody know uhs. No one! There are people i admire but not love, like arron(炎亚轮),[i---], haha. I'm now just very concern about my results for my exams, esp the on coming mid year ): Have a feeling that i will flung it all. i'm making sure i have put in all my effort for passing, that's all, i think.

I hope someone can step into my heart,
but i dunt think it's so possible and easy now.

2009-04-24T21:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's farewell party was fun! Was so memories with lots of surprises! Received presents from teacher, cards from friends, hugs from them too. I'm feeling unbearable to leave them sehs, wth. I miss them alr, just in a day only ): I love the doreamon they give me, the dark chocolate my aunt bought me (:

2009-04-23T04:41:00.000-07:00

Ohhiyoh! I'm back here posting just to update you all what's going on with me these few days & weeks. I have been busy with chinese syf[bronze], falling sick these few days, cough, flu & fever-.- But i went out with zj, terence they all on that day when i'm freaking sick. Vomitted 3 times-.-having fun, i think, haha. tensed up with up coming mid-year, dunt know what to do cause i haven finish a single subjects' revision. STRESSED! Today leys, got caught for my bloody skirt because of MR KEVIN LIM! Stiched out my skirt, but what's worse thing, got caught again & need to wear pants to school tml?! But i dunt have, aiyahs, dunt care, say dunt have. Still must go report to her-.- Wtf, suey sai!

I miss all my friends, my gans, my sweethearts ):

2009-04-09T04:14:00.000-07:00

Photos updated, ugly sehs -.-

2009-04-07T04:46:00.000-07:00

It's like been a long time i din post alr hor, you all miss me right? Haha :D Not much things happen recently actually there is just in these few days luh. Went kbox again. I pierced 2nd nose piercing, felicia pierced 1st piercing, cassandra today also pierced && CHRISTIN pierced her tongue piercing! Shocking sehs, yahs, very. It was like ytd, we went to yishun with cassandra & felicia. Met Jansen darling, when was outside with darling planning to smoke, a guy came towards me, yahs, chua tio-.- 'can i have your no., that guy with cap want dehs' i was like okay, nope. He walked away & i went to find felicia they all. 6plus dhen reached home. Today 7 dhen reached home, cause after cutting hair, i went to hougang mall to buy tongue stud cause i fucking left my stud at the tray there-.- Stupid sehs. I saw a bag quite nice at 8percent, 40plus, ask my aunt to buy for me :D I'll update my pics when i free :D

those memories are killing me, ):

2009-03-27T21:04:00.000-07:00

Eunice gave me, while i was walking pass her? :X

Tiger, long time never drink ler, its 500ml.

Went kbox yesterday night till 12plus, drank beer, sang lots of songs, eat, lol. But what's the best things, it's free. Cause after like 2hr plus, the system went dowm & we wunt be charged. It's so cool luhs, plus next time go, again another 3hr free leys! :D After that, it was around 10 plus 11, i went viod deck & play with this dog, damn cute luh, but the fur abit short, haha. Super hyper, kept jumping around me. 12plus, went home. Thursday was sports heat, 400m & 4x100m. I sprint at the start & jog after 250m, cause leg cramp, behind also no one chasing, got 3rd anyway :D 4x100m was a sure lose, lol (: Now, my leg was having muscle ache, my whole stomach area was aching too, i think is i do too much sit up ler, my leg freaking pain, walk also got difficulties -.- Oh, yesterday i went out to hougang mall with Jason after ava, pei him eat ler dhen he say want buy sweet, bet on which one will be more cheap, ntuc or the $1 shop. In the end i lost-.- 6 liddat jiu go home ler cause he going meet someone, maple dehs. I'm going to stadium after my leg recover, need to prepare & train for my sports day! :D Anyway, these fews days, my joycelyn & jason both kept me occupied by smsing, good uhs? ^^

2009-03-24T20:27:00.000-07:00

Friday went compass with aunt and cousins, walked & shopped around found a nice wallet but its too expensive $129! -.- After that, went swens to eat chocolate fondae, haha. Its nice luhs, i love the chocolate damn lot, lol. Stay at their house till 9 liddat dhen uncle sent me home. Saturday din go anywhere though, whole day stay at home, rot. Sunday leys, more boring went daddy's house, selpt the whole afternoon dhen go home around 6, went to run with melanie at my house there, we played badminton too :D The next day was school reopen ler, damn shag -.- Nothing much happen just that early in the morning ran 2.4km & its the first time i ran the whole 2.4km none stop. But i dunt i pass, so sad. Lots of homework by dear andrew yeo, amath & emath. The whole revision & almost the whole exercise. Today leys, thought have my event end up dunt have, wasted my whole afternoon there at the stadium doing nothing! Wtf? No cigs, very buey tahan! Grrrr! -.-

2009-03-19T20:04:00.000-07:00

I'm bored, wtf? -.- Tml cant go out, sat leys, dunt know, but sunday maybe going out with twinnie :D Hello, i'm bored, Zzz.

I love her,

2009-03-19T17:32:00.000-07:00

Very long never upload my picture ler hors? LOL :D

2009-03-18T23:58:00.000-07:00

Went out yesterday around 10 plus dhen bus&trained down to cwp to find SuperJem.He was late for about half an hour & i sat at the food court eating breakfast (dessert) LOL! When he came, we went to look at the timing & what show are we going to watch. We bought Coming Soon ticket & the movie is at 115, so we went to carpark, walk here & there, sit at some place chat. Went inside the movie theater around 5-10 mins earlier cause nothing to do also. The movie was quite okay just that the face of the things is so horrible -.- Popping red eyes, arghs, dunt want to elaborate more, DO YOU REALLY WANT SEE ME DIE ! Haha ! :D Second movie was kung fu chef, at 315 before that we went to cold storage cause i'm hungry, bought chocolate & went old chang kee to buy carrot cake. Kungfu chef was quite nice, nothing much to comment on. After that we dunt know what to do dhen we walked to SuperJem house there, walk walk walk walk, walked to mrt station but dunt want to go home so early ! -.- Dhen i asked Caixing out to slack, so waited him at school back gate, slack at void deck, saw police but they never come screen us. After a while i went meeting Twinnie to eat dinner, damn hungry, lol. After we eat finish was around 8plus going to 9 ler, so we slowly walked to bus stop, missed a few bus dhen go home. It was quite a fun day cause i met up two person that i long din meet :D

Yesterday was over, & we now are best friend back :D

2009-03-18T20:11:00.000-07:00

Thinking back what i have done past these years, asking myself what good have i done? Looking back to the past, with all my relationship, did i do my part as a good stead? Maybe all the problem lies on me, i'm being not mature enough to solve things or even to love someone. If that love, is that realistic enough? I'm just waiting for the next day to come but not cherish every moment with my friends, with my parent, my love ones. While typing all these, i'm not feeling quite good. Maybe thats mood swing but i'm just sitting down to think what is my aim for leading the life i have now. Every now & dhen i feel that people around dunt like me, treat me as a core in the eye. When i know, see that how they treat me, i always tell myself its okay, i'm the one that causes all these. But i'm feeling real bad. Every now & dhen i think about my past relationship, being so memorable but also very hateful. In what way i should face this world of mine. Do i really need someone inside my heart to lead my life? Or should just carry on study very hard for my courses i want. Or both i could have. I think i'm wanting too much bahs. Friends, love ones, is important for me. Thats what i can conclude. I'm feeling so empty (空虚)

2009-03-18T13:17:00.000-07:00

He asked me if i still thinks of him, i said no. He asked if i still love him, i said no. He asked me if im still feeling sad over him, i said no. I wonders if i am speaking the truth, bt i hope its true. He asked me for stead, i rejected. He asked me for patch, i never agree. He holded my hand, he hugged me, he kissed me. I.. dunt know how it feels, bt i know we arent going to patch, i realised that we are really from different world. I'm sorry. Crazily in love with you, fuckingly sad over you, bt all now became so empty. Imy(?) Ihy(?) Ily(?)

2009-03-17T23:39:00.000-07:00

Dunt you think is cool? :D

My results :
Chinese - C5
English - C6
E.Math - A2
A.math - A2
Science - B4
Humans - E8

2009-03-17T15:32:00.000-07:00

Thinking Of You

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

2009-03-17T14:10:00.000-07:00

Just changed my blogskins all those, hope it looks nice yahs? Lol, used up 2/3 hours to do this, i think its quite fast compared to last time. Quite bored at home though, i want my cig! Arhgs! Later going ouy to buy ear piece dhen going to uncle house. Anyways, i seems to be mia-ed for quite long hors, two weeks ler bahs. My tongue is fine right now, i think? Alot of things happened, like went bugis with my twinnie again, quarreled with people, getting a spare from terence, using an i pod (terence), baking cake, making jellies, meet the parent session, finally bought a thing to hang on phone, talking with my super jem, with my sotong, went hougang stadium to run & prepare for my sports day run, watching tv like coffee prince & 'Gong', planning to watch 'Coming Soon'. Holiday ler, but just 1 week, dunt know can do what also -.- Maybe tomorrow going to watch movie with SuperJem ! :D

2009-03-02T19:45:00.000-08:00

Tongue Pierced !

Hmms, i went yishun & get my tongue pierced today after school. Lol, terence pei me go pierce, when sitting there waiting for her to help me pierce, i was abit jing zhang but after that, i dunt feel the pain so much, just that the blood kept dripping -.- Disgusting horhs? Haha :D Now i'm starting to feel the pulling, like veins pain, but i think is okay, just pray that i can pass today & the rest of the weeks & months, lol.

Common test result :
A.mathematics - A2 :D
E.mathematics - A2 :D
Chinese - B4 D:
Chemistry - C5/6 :D

I'm pretty proud of my results i'm getting right now, just hope that there's no fail ! HAHA !

Reply tags :
Maureen - Erms, i deleted away lers, how do you get to my blog?
Melanie - Love you lots lots :D
Felicia - Haha, i love all my currently result that are taken back (:

2009-02-25T19:17:00.001-08:00

IF I WERE YOU

I look in the mirror, with you in my arms
And I see a reflection
Of a smile that says you believe in love
And just for a moment, I drifted away
But I couldn't stay cuz
A hint of love, a bit of fear
I'm tryin' to say

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here

I'm tryin' to protect you
From the lies that your heart tells
Even though it says that you love me
All I see is pain and misery
Seasons may change
But I can't forget the days of old
My heart ached when you walked away
I said I'd never love again

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here

The days go by
And I feel that you could make me happy
Time goes on
And I feel that love is at my door
And though I tell myself that you're the one
Who said those words before
Thought it hurts too much
I can't trust in love
Again
Again

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz my heart has given up

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
My heart has given up
Can't be here

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
Cuz my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here
I wouldn't, if I were you
I wouldn't be here

2009-02-25T16:00:00.000-08:00

Now at JOCELYN house posting, cause of the fucking rain, diao at here, sianed -.- Anyway school was quite fun except for the test part, but but, i got back my e.mathematics paper & its like i just take the test in the morning. I got 36/50 ! I have 6 careless marks lorhs, sad D: wtf? Tml got a.mathematics class, fucked up paper, Zz -.- Sudden feel of drinking MILK TEA ! Lol, random :D I miss my twinnie..

Lesbo (Zinnia) : Haha, thanks luhs, love you to the core too! :D
Ziting : Haha :D
Jovina : Okays, thanks alot.

2009-02-24T02:12:00.000-08:00

My sotong! Lol, like very long never mention about him ler right? He yesterday came down green but i can find him, SADDDD ! D: Anyways, dunt think too much, he got stead ler >,< Today have my social studies & eng test, flung the whole thing luhs -.- Mt & geo also flung, aiyahs, practically everything fail ler, sighs. Disappointed sehs D: Oh, & my superJem say he coming down to find me to past me presents, haha! :D Happy wors.

2009-02-18T16:00:00.000-08:00

Seeing people around me with bf & they lasted for quite long, i cant stop to feeling down. Today is 18th, it will be our 3rd month. Its like if nothing happen, we could be as lovely as them, issnt it so? But i know it's not worth to last anymore, i'm just feeling pity, feeling miserable. I wunt cry anymore for you, wunt. But i will cry for my stupidness D: I'm still feeling very cheated, ohs, Wtf !

妳走了太久一定很累
他錯了不該妳來面對
離開他就好就算了
心情很乾脆
他其實沒有那麼絕對
遠一點妳就看出真偽
離開他不等於你的世界會崩潰
轉個彎妳還能飛

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控妳的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽
他不值得妳的淚
把那遺憾丟在大雨的街
妳曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以後為自己醉

每段感情都非常珍貴
他的好妳就放在心扉
記得有個人曾讓妳那樣的心醉

妳笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什麼夢都不比妳的美
多少年以後想起他還有些體會
那些妳已無所謂

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控妳的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽他不值得妳的淚
把那遺憾丟在大雨的街
妳曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以後為自己醉

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控妳的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽

他不值得妳的淚
把那遺憾丟在大雨的街
妳曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以後管他是誰

Crying all my lungs out hoping someone
could mend it back for me,
& who wil it be?

2009-02-17T17:45:00.000-08:00

Every now and dhen, i'm telling myself that i couldn't be sad anymore and must get over it ler, bt i dunt think it works well after a long day. I'll be sitting down there listening to songs, thinking about our past, what you have promised and said to me, bt these are alrdy become memories. I thought i should be happy that i finally broke up with you bt things doesnt seems to happen so. Maybe now its more free, bt.. Arghs, i dunt know! I woke up everyday knowing that you aren't with me, aren't mine anymore, letting one day past another, keeping myself happy.

&& I Love Twinnie! I like almost everyday meeting her, miss her w/o seeing her. Ohs, i think i'm sick, falling in love with her!~ Omfg!~

2009-02-16T15:29:00.000-08:00

Yahs, as i think quite a few pple know already, i broke with him 2days before Vanlentine's Day. He totally broke all his promises & fucking making use my trust to him. Unfaithfulness is the most extreme, i really cant tahan guys being, doing this thing to me. Bt whye must it be him? Whye must he do thiskind of thing when i whole heartedly love him? I saved up by w/o eating breakfast, lunch for our 3rd month & Vanlentine's Day yet he did this to me. If he dunt love me anymore whye must he want to hang on to me & do this kind of thing behind me thinking that i would never know? How great can he be luhs, ohs. I dunt know whye am i crying over him still, bt i still dunt know whye, whye he will do this to me..

爱上你那时爱到不象话
后来想尽办法忘掉
到最后我就合上嘴巴
多说像对自己撒谎
星空下说永恒额头上的吻
你双手将我环绕
未来即便它是一个问号
也能对自己炫耀

有一句话再也都听不到

那些过往只好放在心上

你爱我太美好时间会知道

怎样去熬成一句动人的话

那些过往让它自己燃烧

我爱你太美好时间会知道

怎样去熬成动人一句话
记忆里说我们相同的体温
一想到就不会冷
未来永远都是一个问号
也是种天荒地老
这是一种成长还是一种逞强
我的寂寞很善良陪我到任何地方
那些过往越呼吸越明亮
我爱你太美好时间它一定会
把它熬成世上最动人的话